My dad chose his wife over me?

I'm 17 & my dad got remarried 4 years ago. My stepmom is mean. I haven't talked to my dad for a year because of his wife. I'm extremely jealous & hurt because my dad picked her over me. He buys her clothes & nice things. I'm his daughter & my dad said he hated me & disowned me on the phone. I haven't talked to him since. My stepmom controls my dad I'm jelaous & hurt. I feel worthless & no reason to live anymore. That b*tch took everything I had away. My dad is into his new life & new wife & i feel like he has forgot about his old family. I feel so neglected. He has nothing to offer me as a father. I have told him how I felt many times he doesnt change. today i went to his house to reconcile, i gave him a hug and told him a missed him. I reach out all the time and he stilll rejects me. Will the hug mean anything to him? What if my dad wont love me & see me?